One Day At A Time.....

Offering

2010-02-06T20:48:00.000-08:00

Offering

by Jason Morant

There's so much more to You

Than I can even try to understand

But that won's stop me now

From emptying myself into Your hands

All I know to do is fall apart in You

Like the night steps aside as the dawn rushes in

Let Your glory be known

I'm Your offering

Make Your suffering known through me

I'm Your offering

For all the world to see

Your love and believe

There's so much more to You

Than any hardened heart could ever dispel

To You my soul bows

I empty my will into Your hands

All I know to do is fall apart in You

Let Your glory be known!

Yours Alone

2010-01-16T22:46:00.001-08:00

Lord You are the anchor
Refuge in the storm
Your words are wisdom
Shining in the dark

I hear Your voice on the water
I feel Your touch in the wind
Your above and beneath me
Surround my heart again

And I know that You are good
God I know that all You do is good

So I put my life in Your hands
I’m Yours alone, I’m Yours alone
Surrender, Lord I raise my hands
To You alone, to You alone

Lord Your voice guides me
So Tell me what to do
Your heart it drives me

("Yours Alone" by Phil Wickham)

Survive

2009-09-10T17:16:00.000-07:00

As our hearts lay sleeping,
As our bodies rest,

The Heavens open up for us.
Put down your weapon, child,
And close your eyes,
Because you and your enemies
Are innocent tonight.

I never wanted you,
I never wanted you to go.

There's a voice inside your soul
That resonates through your skin and bone,
Up through the blades of grass,
Underneath the feet of God's only son.
The war that you're fighting
Has already been won.

I just want to survive with you by my side.
With you by my side, I just want to survive.

Crooked mouth, quiet down,
Let your fists come undone.
Miscarried love will be reborn.
When we sleep,
The devil's arms are tied.

The war that we're fighting
Has already been won...

I never wanted this,
I never wanted this to go away.
I never wanted this,
I never asked for it,
I never meant to let it go.

I just want to survive with you by my side.
With you by my side, I just want to survive.

- Lyrics from "Dreamlife" by Sleeping At Last

Ever feel lost? Im there.

2009-08-24T18:09:00.000-07:00

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

2009-04-02T10:28:00.001-07:00

MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebrities - Collage - Morph

Hiding

2009-03-30T16:30:00.000-07:00

Needless to say, I am apparently a horrible blogger. I just cant seem to force myself to come up with anything I think people will find interesting enough to read. That and the fact that my life is one big routine with not a lot of new things going on in the midst of everyday life.
I am working two part time jobs, loving both in different ways but making peanuts and meanwhile trying to find a full time while feeling invisible to those who are looking for a new employee. I am tired. I think that most days my mentality is hunker down and get through this period because something better has to be coming right? Not that life isnt great and im not counting my blessings, blah blah blah.... I just am ready for an "easier," "less stressful" time of life. In the meantime, most days I just hide behind work, or cleaning the house, watching too much TV, or getting lost in a book. Trying not to pay attention to how stressful my life is right now. Pretending like I am not worried about money or jobs; pretending like all is well and we will get through, which of course we will. This too shall pass......right?

Waiting

2009-02-23T06:06:00.000-08:00

I realized last week that I am waiting for my "real" life to start. By real life I mean the life where Tyler and I both have good paying full times jobs, benefits, a kid or two, we are financially secure, able to go on vacations, dont have to work on nights or weekends, etc. I feel like I am on pause spiritually, emotionally, and even physically until this "real life" starts up. I obviously am aware that this is foolish thinking but that does not make it feel any less true to me. I am determined to start making a conscious effort to enjoy the "now" of my life and try to convince my spirit, mind, and body to stop waiting for something that may or may not happen in the future. I am sure that real joy and content is found when you learn to live in and enjoy your "now." This similar lesson keeps popping up for me.... fancy that. :)

Its Time To Suck It Up!

2009-02-16T16:19:00.000-08:00

Well, its time to suck it up and get back (?) on the wagon. I have decided that its time for me to start being more active, no excuses, and use my new bike and perhaps some walking to get in better shape. I need to pay closer attention to what I am eating because "you are what you eat" after all. I dont think I want to turn into any form of a dairy product or cookies for that matter. ;) So this is it! I am hoping that by putting this on here, I will not allow myself to back out. Wish me luck because I am definitely going to need it!

Smile!

2009-02-11T17:04:00.000-08:00

Anyone else feeling me on this one? :)

Learning To Be Happy Where I Am, As Opposed To Looking Ahead To Where I Want To Be....

2009-02-09T15:40:00.000-08:00

"True contentment is a real, even an active, virtue---not only affirmative but creative. It is the power of getting out of any situation all there is in it."

- G.K. Chesterton

I am beginning to realize that the key to ridding myself of any feelings stress and anxiety is to simply learn to be joyful and appreciative of what I have and where I am at in my life currently. Every time I start getting anxious about the van breaking down on me at any minute and us not having money to fix it, I stop and remember that the van itself was a gift! It was an instrument of God's faithful provision. I then proceed to pat the dashboard of my beloved new/old van and bless it and the one who gave it to me. Thank you Lord for my van that keeps on trucking, despite needing over $800 of work. I am grateful for however long it lasts, because it is a miracle that I have something to drive in the first place. I am finding that this choice to stop my negative thoughts, from the small things to the big, and replace them with positive and grateful thoughts, the lower my stress levels go down and the higher my contentment with myself, my jobs, my loved ones..... my life!

I realize that the difficult circumstances I have gone through the past few years are all being used to form me into who I am meant to be and will enable me to be a more effective, real, down to earth, understanding person in the long run. I wouldn't trade them for anything when looking at it from that perspective!

A picture is worth a thousand words?

2009-02-08T15:41:00.000-08:00

So, because I am apparently a lame blogger, I have decided to post a picture everyday that best describes my day, mood, thoughts, etc. I may attempt to explain this picture if I am feeling particularly "bloggy" or I may just post the picture and let it speak for itself. I believe this will allow me to share something about myself while also allowing me to get used to this whole blogging thing and perhaps find my "blogging style."

Picture Of The Day:

"Be Still (raphah - be weak) and Know that I am God."

Some Random Things About Me

2009-02-03T16:54:00.000-08:00

Sooooo.... I have no idea what I think I am doing, starting a blog. Whose idea was this anyway? I thought the easiest way to get this thing going would be to post a few random things about myself. So here it goes:

1. I have three of the cutest dogs ever and wouldnt trade them for anything. They are my children, for now.
2. I love Bollywood movies and music! I own multiple CD's and DVD's of Bollywood stuff. Its fascinating to me.
3. I am from a family of 6 girls, I'm third from the top.
4. My husband, Tyler, and I dated 4 and a half years before getting married (which was too long).
5. I lived in Monterrey, Mexico for 8 years when I was a child.
6. I can only be truly relaxed when my house is clean although I rarely have time to clean it.
7. I am an introvert, I draw strength from alone time.
8. Reading and music are my choices of escape.
9. I want to learn how to play the guitar (doesnt everyone these days?)
10. I have had the opportunity to travel to, and visit: France, Germany, and England, Paraguay, Argentina, Brazil, Costa Rica, and obviously Mexico. I want to see a lot more of the world before its all said and done.
11. I love the beach! Laying out with a good book, getting a tan is my happy place in the warmer months.
12. I majored in Child and Family Development at UGA.
13. I have my Masters in Social Work but find myself not wanting to use it in the traditional sense.
14. My house is your house (as they say in Mexico). I grew up hearing this and find it to be true for myself and my home today.
15. I have been through the one house fire I will ever have to go through in my lifetime, hopefully.
16. Cars do not seem to like my husband and I and often resort to suicide (totaling themselves) to get out of being a part of our family. (AKA We do not have good luck with cars)
17. I want to know how to belly dance, but dont want to go through the process of learning it. :)
18. I am very impatient, with myself and in general, when it comes to learning new things which unfortunately has held me back from doing more in life.
19. I have always wanted to be remembered as being my own person, ever since I was a little girl. Sometimes I take this too far.
20. I love truth, honesty, being real and down to earth, no BSing or telling me what you think I want to hear. I love real conversation with people.
21. I am selfish and want to work more on sacrificing my wants for the needs of others.
22. I long to be healthy and active but my picky eating habits, busyness and overall laziness and excuses keep getting in the way.
23. Tyler and I are meant for each other. We perfectly balance each other out. His strengths are my weaknesses and my strengths are his. We are best friends. God did an amazing job of choosing us for each other. He couldnt have picked a better husband or lifelong friend for me than Tyler.
24. I want my fear and pride to stop getting in the way of what I am capable of, my possibilities.
25. I am never more truly alive and myself than when I am near to God and able to feel his spirit, his voice within me. I have not been my whole self, for an extended period of time, in years.
26. I am allergic to dairy products. This does not stop me from loving them and partaking freely however, when I reach my body's "quota" my nose starts itching and driving me crazy.
27. I hate talking on the phone and would rather communicate using some other form (in person, text, email).
28. Usually when I am around a needy person (emotionally) my instinct is to run the other way. I think God is teaching/humbling me in this area lately by showing me how needy I AM, so that I can better sympathize with others when they are in that situation.

That's all for now but I will try and keep working on keeping posts current!