I realized last week that I am waiting for my "real" life to start. By real life I mean the life where Tyler and I both have good paying full times jobs, benefits, a kid or two, we are financially secure, able to go on vacations, dont have to work on nights or weekends, etc. I feel like I am on pause spiritually, emotionally, and even physically until this "real life" starts up. I obviously am aware that this is foolish thinking but that does not make it feel any less true to me. I am determined to start making a conscious effort to enjoy the "now" of my life and try to convince my spirit, mind, and body to stop waiting for something that may or may not happen in the future. I am sure that real joy and content is found when you learn to live in and enjoy your "now." This similar lesson keeps popping up for me.... fancy that. :)